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Wednesday, October 04, 2006



I used to believe in promises.
Promises that gave hope, that brings a smile to a child's face.
Like an innocent child, I very much believed that
Promises were made with the intention to fulfill.
However, time and time, i was proven wrong.
Soon irealised i had been numb to any other promises.
They could no longer bring a smile nor bring hope,
to that same child.
That child started to believe,
that promises were meant to be broken.

These words that people say, with the pet phrase "promise"
Soon became clear to her.
They were nothing but merely to entertain.
The same child no longer trusted any of these lies.
She thought by acknowledging them as lies,
She would no longer feel disappointment.
However, deep in her,
She knew that she was just waiting.
Praying and wishing that one day,
"Promise" could be brought back to live.
That no longer would she be decieved.
Alone, She waited.

However long the wait might be,
It did not dishearten her.
She's a strong child.
Or should i say, a child who puts on a strong front,
to protect herself.
No on knew how she really felt.
She was being someone else.
Not that same old child anymore.
That glow in her could no longer be found.
The joy that a child should have didnt seem to exist in her.
She is now an unhappy and pretentious girl.
Whom she herself no longer knew.
Who could not recognise her own reflection.

When you appeared,
She thought that she found hope.
The thought that was kept in the deepest part of her,
wanted so badly to surface.
Was it a hint that the child could start to be like any other?
She wanted to give it a go.
The promises you made,
I learnt to trust and believe again.
The scars that were there, seemed to stop hurting.
Yes, they could not disappear, but they didnt hurt as much as they used to.
I believed in believed.
Simply, believe.

Like a girl who just woke up from her dreams,
She woke up. She was snapped back to reality.
Was she asking for too much?
That light that glowed, that very same light,
Seems to be gone. Or rather, long gone.
She was too indulged in the harmless promises made.
Just like any other, you walked onto that path.
The child was immune to everything that's happening.
Suddenly, she realised that the scars that she thought could disappear in time to come,
were actually more evident as days passed.
The hurt accumulated while she was in her little illusions,
surged from all directions.
She stopped breathing, stopped thinking.
The world seems to stop moving just for her.

Was it all but a fruitless wait?
Will she ever get what she wants?
She's been on an emotional roller coaster.
It's not an easy ride for her to get pass.
But she pulled through.
She lived through the most adverse conditions alone.
She never really had a friend.
Or neither was she ever happy, really.
She tried to treat others with sincerity,
but all she got in return was hurt, lies, betrayal.
She learnt to protect herself.
Because she's sick of being the coward little girl,
who always gets bullied.
That's why she now turned out to be different.
She grew up in a way that little did.
She may seem nochanlent,
But who understands her?

Ok, i hope i don't sound idiotic. I'm being an emotional bitch right now. That's bad.
To baobao, althought you did not fulfill much of you promises made, it's alright.
I have been through that so many times, it seems to me that it might just stop hurting.
Thanks for being there for me to whine at, to let me vent my anger.
Thanks for caring for me. Sorry that i rejected your concern at times.
But please understand. I'm not used to being concerned by people.
Most people just stare and go. To me, This was like daily fare. I'm just so used to keeping everything to myself. So don't feel neglected if i ignore you. It's hard for me to change a habit that i have for so many years. A habit that i adapted to protect myself.
Lastly, start fulfilling some of your promises, esp my cranes, or i don't want you anymore.
=)

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faith;

Bao
ryurika Faith
10th jan 1989
18 years old
currently in SP (DECC)
her baobao xD
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Adeline
ryuriko mizukii
13th august 1990
sweet sixteen
coded twentyone
currently in Singapore Poly (DCP)
His baby xD
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loves;
him
family
friends
gaming
hanging out
handphone
laptop
dota
her :]

her
family
friends
ear piercing
manga
BLEACH
Laptop
eating
him :]
audtion
maple
shopping
dota
phone

iwishupon a star*
him
to always love her
ACE his examinations
more clothes
more jeans
new phone
PSP
new desktop
to QUIT gaming

her
to always love him
Manicure
dye hair purple or red
ACE her examinations
more SHOES
unlimited A-cash
THAT Levi's lady style jeans
MORE MORE MORE TOPS
MORE SKIRTS
MORE MORE MORE hairbands
CHOCOLATES
THAT Guess wallet
THAT shades
more accessories

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Death Note 2 [28.12.o6]
Charlotte's Web [26.12.o6]
Confessions Of Pain [31.12.o6]
Ghost Tunnel [30.01.07]
Ghost Rider [21.02.07]
Just Follow Law [28.02.07]
Protege [??.??.07]
Primeval[??.03.07]
TMNT
300
Wild Hogs [o1.o5.o7]
Spiderman 3[o3.o5.o7]




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